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The Helper

    "I'll think about it," he said, wiping the tears that are threatening to escape his eyes, "but thank you... really." That was my best friend of ten years speaking. I care about him, I do. But sometimes he can just be so impossible to deal with. He's having problems with his father, again.
    Sometimes, while we go home from work, he'll unconsciously clenched his left hand tightly. Other days, I'll find his eyebrows in a permanent crease, his eyes unfocused. Sometimes, while we are eating, he glares at the sandwich he bought until I ask him what's wrong. I just feel that he got this burden in his shoulders - and no one can help him, not even me.

    I always try my best and help him though, always. Since then, I'm the one who stood beside him. His laughter makes me happy. I feel good whenever he tells me his problems. I feel better when I get to help him solve it. But I can never erase those sad shadows I see in his eyes. I can only try though - only try.
    I guess, it turn out to be a big surprise to me one day when he came up to me, his usually pale cheeks tainted with a pink hue. His eyes seemingly brighter, clearer. A smile is plastered on his handsome face. I brighten up immediately. I want to see more of this side of him.

    It didn't take me long to realize this source of this happiness. We've been together for so long for me not to notice how he stares intently at the new employee at our office. So, she was the reason, huh?
    "Help me?" He stared at me with his knee-buckling gaze.
    I sighed and forced out a smile. "Sure."

    It went like this for the next couple of months; me staring at him staring at her. He asked for my help and I did what I can.

    I should be happy for him, I know. He finally found someone he wants to be with. Someone who's enough for him; someone who he wants.

    "... And the reception will be held at the restaurant next to our house in Antipolo. I chose the food myself!" I can imagine how happy you are. I know you would be standing, all jittery because of too much excitement. I know you would be waving you're right hand right now where you are to put emphasis on every word you're saying. I can feel it even through the mobile phone that I am using.
    "You're my bestfriend. I want to be there."
    "Of course," I said, biting back a sob. Weak, I struggle to stand but failed. "I'll be there." With a soft click, I turned off the phone. In the floor I sat, paralyzed; tears flowing silently on my cheeks.
    I can never say no. Not to you.

    I should be happy right now.
    But I can't.
    It hurts.


The Helper (the Two)

What I like being a Two is knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better. I'm described to be sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings.
What's hard being a Two is not being able to say no. I don't do things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish. I work hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings.


Ayon sa isang personality test na aking sinagutan, ako daw ay isang "Helper." Haha, ang kuwento sa taas ay kathang isip lamang. Echos.

Rants... in Japanese

Ima totemo ureshii yo. Watashi no tomodachi to Sho-chan kara.

Demo, doushite?
Ima, doushite anata o kaerimasu ka?

Dame da yo.
Abunai da yo! Ima ureshii kara!

Anata wa totemo bad desu ne? Evil da yo.
Demo watashi wa anata ga kirai yo.

Jaa... Gambatte ne?
You'll need it.


When Sho Says I LOVE YOU

When Sho Sakurai says "I Love You," what will you do? What will you answer him?

Will you jump for joy?
Will you be speechless?
Will you cry?
Or will you faint from too much happiness?

Well, apparently, this... this.. girl whom Sho said I LOVE YOU to replied with one word:

Thank You.

I mean C'MON.. This is THE SHO.

Nah.. Haha.. I'm just over-reacting when I saw this scene in Honey and Clover. I was hyperventilating when Sho confessed his love - and this girl.. who was smiling at that time who I thought will say YES! just continued smiling and told him... Thank You.

And I was like... WHA~~??!!

But then, thinking about it.. This drama showed one lesson that we should all remember...
Don't give in too easily.. even if it's THE SHO...

Haha.. easy to say when you're not in front of Sho..

Anyway, ikaw..
What will you do if an Arashi member tell you.. "I Love You"?

This is HELLO

Daisuki desu. Atarashi kara!
(I love it. Because it's new.)
Very inspiring, no? Something I learned from my Jap11.. haha

Yay.. now that I have a new cellphone - i'm hoping that I'll get my social life back. haha

Problem is.. i charge the battery for like.. what, 2 hours?, and i get 30minutes of service! what kind of battery is that?

someone... give me a charger this Valentine's day. Onegaishimasu. Haha.


It's my fault. I know it's my fault.
Now... You're gone.

I'm left with nothing but loneliness - without anyone within reach.

Wherever you are.. whoever filthy hands the person who had stolen you away from me is.. I hope that they can get a better use of you. They may sell you! Sell your body! But then, at least they can have the money to buy food to eat.

Remember that you may not have the "ideal" body that people desire - but still, you were the one by my side, tolerating my seemingly permanent mood swings.

You made me happy this four months that we were together. You served as the bridge so that I may not be lonely.

But now, all I can say is.. goodbye.
I've been careless. Someone deserves you more.

Goodbye 1110i.

(Entrance of Background music)



I was looking for what "Motivation" I use for this coming year when I saw this picture.
Inspiring, yes?

Kilig sa Unang Tingin

Is it even possible na kiligin ka dahil sa isang picture? Gosh.. Nakita ko tong picture na to at aun.. Haha. See for yourself.

Arghh.. i may sound like a highschool girl right now but - CMON!?!? Haha.. O just felt like Sho's offering his heart to me.

I love Sho. Somehow.. when I was madly in love with Jun, I met him.. heard his voice.. saw his smile.. and kaboom.

A Change of heart. Haha. I love you Sho.

Bishounen Found: Mizushima Hiro

I just finished watching the Jdorama Zettai Kareshi (Absolute Boyfriend) last night. And yeah.. I THINK I found another bishounen. Haha.

Well.. as you can see in the picture, Hiro is really bishounen-material. But well, I'm doubting myself if I actually like him because he is Hiro or I adore him because he looks like Jun Matsumoto.

Haha. Yes. Look closer. He resembles Papa Jun.

This is not actually the first time nakapanood ako ng show na andun siya. He's also in Hana Kimi as Nanba Minami. At nakakatuwa sa kanya.. he can speak fluently in English.

Anyway, I realized na.. nakakainis na yung mga katawan nila. I mean, masyado silang mapayat! I'm not really demanding them to be hulky.. alam ko din naman na kaya 'bishounen' ang tawag because they should have 'slender' body. Hm.. Pero sana.. magka laman naman sila.

Hana Yori Dango Final (The Movie)

Yep, that's a picture of Jun Matsumoto marrying Inoue Mao. Haha.

Nah... I just watched Hana Yori Dango Final (The Movie). They married in the end. And Jun - I mean Domyouji becomes a Dad.

Actually, matagal na pinalabas tong movie na to, June28 pa ata this year, but I can't find it in the web - ung may subtitles.

I'm quite pleased with the movie, dare I say it's better than.. Twilight? Haha. Twilight  fanatics might kill me.

Well, I mean... Jun got to show his chest - I was like screaming while watching the film. Haha. Pero I gotta admit.. super, super, super CHEEZY sa dulo. I mean, sa bagay, if you're going to think about it, every Hana Yori ending is kinda cheezy. But's Cheezy is better than Jun dying though.

And yeah, Jun actually said the F-word in this film. Yeah, the english curse word. Haha. Nagpunta kasi sila ng Vegas, and Jun spoke a lot of english in the film.

You gotta watch this movie too.

21 Economic Models Explained with Cows

The following entry was originally posted by Mark Conner and was also found in Steve Murrell's multiply site with some comments added that were from that site as well. Enjoy reading!!!

"There is no doubt that the world economy has been in a bit of a turmoil of late with extreme volatility in things such as the value of the dollar, the share market, and property. Here's a humorous attempt to try to make some sense of it all ..."

21 Economic Models Explained with Cows

You have 2 cows.
You give one to your neighbor.

You have 2 cows.
The State takes both and gives you some milk.

You have 2 cows.
The State takes both and sells you some milk.

You have 2 cows.
The State takes both and shoots you.

You have 2 cows.
The State takes both, shoots one, milks the other, and then throws the milk away.

You have two cows.
You sell one and buy a bull.
Your herd multiplies, and the economy grows.
You sell them and retire on the income.

You have two giraffes.
The government requires you to take harmonica lessons.

You have two cows.
You sell one, and force the other to produce the milk of four cows.
Later, you hire a consultant to analyze why the cow has dropped dead.

You have two cows.
You sell three of them to your publicly listed company, using letters of credit opened by your brother-in-law at the bank,  then execute a debt/equity swap with an associated general offer so that you get all four cows back, with a tax exemption for five cows.
The milk rights of the six cows are transferred via an intermediary to a Cayman Island Company secretly owned by the majority shareholder who sells the rights to all seven cows back to your listed company.
The annual report says the company owns eight cows, with an option on one more.
You sell one cow to buy a new president of the United States , leaving you with nine cows.
No balance sheet provided with the release.
The public then buys your bull.

You have two cows.
You go on strike, organize a riot, and block the roads, because you want three cows.

You have two cows.
You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk.
You then create a clever cow cartoon image called 'Cowkimon' and market it worldwide.

You have two cows.
You re-engineer them so they live for 100 years, eat once a month, and milk themselves.

You have two cows, but you don't know where they are.
You decide to have lunch.

You have two cows.
You count them and learn you have five cows.
You count them again and learn you have 42 cows.
You count them again and learn you have 2 cows.
You stop counting cows and open another bottle of vodka.

You have 5000 cows. None of them belong to you.
You charge the owners for storing them.

You have two cows.
You have 300 people milking them.
You claim that you have full employment, and high bovine productivity.
You arrest the newsman who reported the real situation.

You have two cows.
You worship them.

You have two cows.
Both are mad.

Everyone thinks you have lots of cows.
You tell them that you have none. No-one believes you, so they bomb you and invade your country.
You still have no cows, but at least now you are part of Democracy.

You have two cows.
Business seems pretty good.
You close the office and go for a few beers to celebrate.

You have two cows.
The one on the left looks very attractive.

You've had 14 cows.
You wonder if you need a carabao next.

You have two cows.
One cow sold to buy a nice cellphone and load (call & text card).